>Be me 13, 2009
>Life is great and nothing is bothering me
>Go to school and come back to play some Halo: Reach or Assassin's Creed
>Lived in an apartment complex
>Our neighbors were a big family of 9 members
>Sometimes I'd go out and look at people and enjoy the fresh air on the balcony
>Our neighbor's eldest son was always there in their balcony and looked very preoccupied and tried smoking most of the time as well, watching the world going by with such a blank stare.
>Always fighting with his parents, and used to hide his pack of cigarettes on our apartment number lightbox.
>One night in the summer I asked him why he is hiding it there and if he is ok
>He looked at me and smiled then said "One day you will understand"
>He shot himself 6 months after that, in their balcony, he was 20

Now I understand, I'm staring at the world as it goes by, passing me as if I'm a rock, unmovable.
Depressed and even my parents don't want to listen to what troubles their only son, I'm tired guys, nothing Is right. How come nothing I try actually works? How come my own parents don't want to help? They just pretend I'm ok, when I've literally held a knife to my throat today. Will they understand before it's too late and or will I end up shooting myself? Crazy how this world is basically made of lies, if you are genuinely good things will not be good at all for you. Meanwhile awful people get everything they want. Sick sick world. I'm just like him now. RIP Adam.

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