>Be me
>Asperger as fuck
>Horrible social skills but ripped from lifting since 2016 due to poor self-esteem
>Spent all my money on books over the years
>Was a virgin fag until 22 years old
>Had a couple girls but nothing serious in my 20's
>Got rid of gaming pc even to be more social
>Feelsbadman
>Somewhat worked but still Asperger as fuck
>Got a job as a bartender to improve social skills and get girls
>Fast forward
>31 years old now
>Had to have spine surgery few years ago because of fucked up deformed back
>Somewhat corrected but still deformed
>Destroys my ego and self-confidence
>Lose gains
>No longer go out
>Move out of state to start new life because of destroyed ego and self-confidence
>Back hurts like fuck everyday still from hardware, don't know if it will ever go away
>Ease back into gym but still have 30 lbs fat to lose
>Buy a new gaming rig a few months ago
>Go back to old ways of rat race then come home to game while leaving behind all connections at home
>Tfw no friends or gf when I abandoned all back home
>Go out to bars and clubs in new heavily urbanized state but never even approach or have anything to say due to poor self-esteem and nihilism even though everybody thinks I'm a fighter and built like one.
>Walk the street for hours in existential drunken haze in the wee hours of morning

Lesson: mindset and effort matters retards

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>Be me
>Asperger as fuck
>Horrible social skills but ripped from lifting since 2016 due to poor self-esteem
>Spent all my money…