>be me
>Always thought things would work out for me. Coasted through school with minimal effort getting all D's
>Focused on having fun with friends instead. Became a fun and outgoing person.
>Due to previously bad experiences I could never be real with them. I never got attached but neither did they really. Was never able to get a GF because of this either
>After school ended never saw them again
>After school became a neet for 3 years. Spent all day everyday online since I feel like it's the only place I can be myself.
>end up in some toxic communities. Slowly warping my perception of reality and how others interact with eachother
>dont really agree with what they say or do but since their the only place I really socialize in I begin warping my personality to be more accepted.
>Soon find I've completely lost touch with myself
>I feel no attachment to the man in the mirror.
>You know how when your being yourself you get that little hit of dopamine? I don't feel that anymore. I have no personality. I'm as boring as you can get.
>Plus years of sitting hunched over has fucked up my back causing it to constantly ache.
>Plus living such a sedentary lifestyle has turned me into a fat fuck who looks 10+ years their age and feels like it too.

I only wish God made me retarded enough to never notice the decay of my being. I wish I could blissfully roam the digital fields a hollow man. Engaging with all the other boring husks with childlike glee.

I think I'm going to kill myself next week. I've become so detached that the thought doesn't even phase me which is proof I'm too far down the hole. There is nothing that can save me from this hell wrought upon myself

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>Always thought things would work out for me. Coasted through school with minimal effort getting all D's
>Focused on having…