I want to be a woman. Live many lives as many different women.
>inb4 troon
Yes, had this desire since I was like three. One of my earliest memories.

I am trying to approach this from the mindset of non-duality, dream reality and living in the mindset of it. And lucid dreaming.

Has anyone here accomplished such a feat? Gotten close? It seems I am mostly alone on this path, which is fine, but it is somewhat discouraging. I am quite certain morphological resonance/travel is how the world operates.

Here's my TLDR
>Turn 26
>Living a normal life. GF, successful in career
>Have a lucid dream for the first time one night
>Google it. Find gateway process
>Brain basically melts as I am reading this document. No history of schizo thinking but I guess I had a psychotic break
>Spend 4 months obsessing over making my fantasy real
>See women. Feel this sort of pulling sensation, anxiety and nausea. Like I was about to transplant consciousness with them, but it wouldn't really be a replacement since they are me already
>General dissociative state/feeling of unreality. But I had many coincidences/apophenia and all manner of woowoo experiences
>Wake up one morning and I did it. 2 seconds. Then back to normal
>Get norovirus the next day, shit my brains out for 4 additional days, by the time its all over I've broken out of the trance completely

This experience had a very distinct feeling of comfort and anxiety at the same time. I really don't know how to describe it. If I focus on it for a few days, I do get more experiences that vaguely relate to it. If I don't think about it, everything becomes mundane again.

Any sages able to weigh in? I feel like I am not able to describe accurately what I am talking about.

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